25 reasons why sober life rocks

What does a sober life feel like? Jumping out of bed with a smile on your face Clear skin, mind and conscience Feeling solid, confident and strong Greater awareness – 20×20 vision replaces tunnel vision Being on the same wave length as your kids Being able to look everyone in the eye Deep sense ofContinue reading “25 reasons why sober life rocks”

Toxic turds and other reasons I’m glad I no longer drink alcohol

It’s gross, I know, but I do not miss the bathroom after a hard night. No one likes to mention — or acknowledge — the horrors of the morning after bowel movement. Because it’s unholy. There’s no escaping the toxicity. The fact that that Pinot Noir, Tanqueray and whatever else found its way down your gullet is poison. ExpensiveContinue reading “Toxic turds and other reasons I’m glad I no longer drink alcohol”

I got sucked back into the soup of my subconscious

I got sucked back into the soup of my subconscious. The self-sabotaging drive kicked in again and over powered the system. Pulled me under. The voices… you’re stupid, no good, you’re going to fail. You’re not proper. You’re a half-baked flake who hasn’t got what it takes. No one will take you seriously. Why areContinue reading “I got sucked back into the soup of my subconscious”

‘The Beginnings of Shame’

Guilt – I’m sorry I made a mistake Shame – I’m sorry, I am a mistake We experience comments during our childhood that can stick with us for the rest of our lives. Parents, peers, teachers or other influencers say things like, ‘if you do that people will think your odd/stupid/weird’, ‘go and stand overContinue reading “‘The Beginnings of Shame’”

Don’t ignore the signs

People usually have loads of ‘wake up’ calls that they choose to ignore. As drinkers, we’re well practiced at laughing things off as ‘just one of those crazy things that happen when you’re drunk’. But they add up. And get worse. Until you can’t really sweep them under carpet anymore. They might be small suchContinue reading “Don’t ignore the signs”

An alcoholic – to be or not to be?

The knowledge that ‘I definitely wasn’t an alcoholic’ kept me trapped in a negative binge drinking cycle for years. I would never drink in the morning (unless at a festival), always had at least three days off a week (unless on holiday), never drink at work (unless there was wine), hadn’t been done for drinkContinue reading “An alcoholic – to be or not to be?”

Dealing with the monotony of life

I used to think of drinking as exercising my demons – taking my shadow self out for a walk. I’d be working hard all week keeping all the shit together, being ‘good’ and felt pent up. I needed to release the pressure. A few glasses of vino, a few shots of tequila enough (and more)Continue reading “Dealing with the monotony of life”

Drinking always leads to dissatisfaction

I’d be having a nice Sunday, cooking dinner for the family. I’d have a few glasses of wine, then want more. I’d want more to drink, I’d want more people to come round. I’d want to smoke. I’d get all dissatisfied with my life thinking things were not fun enough. If friends were round, theyContinue reading “Drinking always leads to dissatisfaction”